week 12-13, Dec 5, 2010

It's been that long!! unbelievable. I still feel pretty much the same or maybe a little better..still do not have cravings and still struggling to find the right food. Last week I had my first ultra sound scan, it was quite amazing! It was so clear and I can almost see the details. Really have to thank modern technology that gives me more hope and encouragement on this journey.

I will update a video link when Stew has uploaded it onto his site. Apart this excitement, not much of change in terms of my body shape and spirit. I still have bad appetite and mood swings( no  bad mood most of the time).

The following day

Again in the morning, I did the test again. This time it is a strong positive sign.....still I do not trust it completely although the packaging says 99% accuracy. I guess we should find out this weekend=)

Had a very nicely cooked scotch fillet from Stew...yummy..starting to double wash my raw vegies and fruits. and overcook my meat if I can.

10.10.10

I got up in the morning feeling exhausted. It is indeed the third day I missed my period. I'm certainly not convinced this is it because I can feel the hormone imbalance causing extreme sore muscles. This happens to me every time just before my period comes and I pray for it to be over so that I can just forget about it. Now I just feel like a big sore object.
I did a quick urine test and surprisingly it shows light positive. Not sure if I'm happy or confused and of course my first instinct is to see the doc and get it tested on the same day. Stew seems to be more relaxed about it and suggested that I should do another one tomorrow morning just to be sure and get it checked next weekend. I thought it was a conservative idea but took it any way.
So I was thinking about it on and off all day....

Simply follow your heart is not easy

I made a wrong decision years back in my career because I did not know myself enough. All I cared about was money and just like a toddler I craved for new things to do. Things that could earn me more money in the future. Now I know the most important thing is to know yourself first and try to find a matching job and do it extremely well. I believe this kind of success will bring you true happiness. In today's world, however, there are so many distractions around to pull you away from this. Recruitment agencies are one of them. But it is you who creates your own future. So be strong and do the right thing for yourself.